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*SPOILER ALERT FOR MACKAYLA LANE NOVELS*

Excerpt from chapter 3 of Dreamfever by Karen Marie Moning, after MacKayla Lane has been raped by the 3 Unseelie princes and become, “Pri-ya”, a fae sex addict.



“I am heat.
I am need.
I am pain.
I am more than pain. I am agony. I am the other side of death denied the mercy of it. I am life that should never have been.

Skin is all I am. Skin that is alive that hungers that aches that needs
to be touched to endure. I roll and roll, but it is not enough. It
makes the pain worse. My skin is on fire, flayed by a thousand red-hot
blades.

I have been on the cold stone
floor of this cell for as long as I can recall existing. I have never
known anything but this cold stone floor. I am hollow. I am barren. I
am empty. I do not know why I continue to be.”



“I am alive. I am so alive. I have never been more in my life. I sit,
cross-legged, nude, in a tangle of silk sheets. Life is a sensual
banquet and I am voracious. I glisten with sweat and satisfaction. But
I need more.


I push onto all fours
and arch my rump invitingly. I know he cannot resist my ass. When he
looks at it, he gets a funny look on his face. Savage, his mouth
tightens, his eyes harden. Sometimes he looks away sharply.

But he always looks back.
Hard, fast, hungry like me.

I believe he is divided in desire. I do not understand that. Desire
is. There is no judgment between animals. No right or wrong. Lust is.
Pleasure is the way of beasts.” - MacKayla Lane


Hi, LiveJournal.

Bye, LiveJournal.

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Good Night, Yo!

Tonight was pretty awesome. Fast Five was a really good movie. I somehow managed to drive home safely even after watching it, lol. After the movie, we hung out at Jan's house, which is awesome because he's awesome. I got a blister on my thumb from playing King of Fighters 2006, which is a lot better than the one on PS3. And sadly, the PSN is still down. A friend of mine, Yamada-san, got Platinum the Trinity for 360 while I'm stuck waiting. Damn.

In other news, I live in Waianae again, because school is out for the summer. I have a driver's license. My sister hates me more, or to the same degree as before. Whatever, I could care more about she thinks.

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That Accursed DMV

I swear, they have something against me. Two times they turned me away from me even being able to take the road test for stupid reasons. This time, they TRIED to again, but my mom outsmarted them. And then when I do finally get to take it…………by the mercy of Buddha, I should have just thrown that bitch out of the car. What she said was the reason I failed was not because I did things wrong. I didn’t hit anything, didn’t go too fast or too slow, didn’t almost hit anyone, didn’t do anything bad, but that woman………What she said I did wrong was, “bad judgement”. And I’m just like, wow…..really. So you’re judgement is to not judge me on my driving ability, but on my ability to make judgements, most of which weren’t my judgements, but YOUR assumption of what MY judgements seemed like to you.

I wasted a good outfit today for nothing.

Life...

So I think I figured out the main problem in my life. I'm not allowed to love anything. It may sound crazy but that's how it is, if I love something, I have to lose it somehow. Anything I love has to be taken from me. Pretty much everything I loved, except for my PS3, is separated from me. But I'll find a way around it eventually. Until then, everyone keep a comfortable distance from me, and don't give me any items that I would truly love. Unless you want to move, or me to move, or the thing to be lost or broken or something. I'm meant to be a solitary creature I guess.

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DreamFever

*SPOILER ALERT FOR MACKAYLA LANE NOVELS*
Excerpt from chapter 3 of Dreamfever by Karen Marie Moning, after MacKayla Lane has been raped by the 3 Unseelie princes and become, "Pri-ya", a fae sex addict.



"I am heat.
I am need.
I am pain.
I am more than pain. I am agony. I am the other side of death denied the mercy of it. I am life that should never have been.
Skin is all I am. Skin that is alive that hungers that aches that needs to be touched to endure. I roll and roll, but it is not enough. It makes the pain worse. My skin is on fire, flayed by a thousand red-hot blades.
I have been on the cold stone floor of this cell for as long as I can recall existing. I have never known anything but this cold stone floor. I am hollow. I am barren. I am empty. I do not know why I continue to be."

"I am alive. I am so alive. I have never been more in my life. I sit, cross-legged, nude, in a tangle of silk sheets. Life is a sensual banquet and I am voracious. I glisten with sweat and satisfaction. But I need more.

I push onto all fours and arch my rump invitingly. I know he cannot resist my ass. When he looks at it, he gets a funny look on his face. Savage, his mouth tightens, his eyes harden. Sometimes he looks away sharply.
But he always looks back.
Hard, fast, hungry like me.
I believe he is divided in desire. I do not understand that. Desire is. There is no judgment between animals. No right or wrong. Lust is. Pleasure is the way of beasts." - MacKayla Lane

Tonight

Tonight, Friday night, I'm going to do bad things. Or at least things that are not legal.

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地震(じしん) Earthquake

 

So today in Japanese class, my teacher said that she needed to take a few minutes to talk to us. Then she told us that it had to do with the recent earthquake in Japan, and that it’s something she should talk about. So she started up her powerpoint and…..as soon as she read the date of the quake, it was easy to see she was barely keeping from crying. As she went on, she paused a few times to translate and elaborate on some things. I could barely stand it, seeing her so sad, hearing about how she felt bad that she couldn’t do anything, knowing that she had to go see a counselor and that only now she was strong enough to talk somewhat openly about it. I love her and I felt her pain. When she ended saying that “It will be difficult, but we will work hard to restore our beautiful country.” it really personified that hard-working Japanese spirit that we all hear about. After that, she went on to say how bad her English is and apologize for being hard to understand, but you’re great Ikeda-sensei~

P.S. At the end of class, since today was the day we were supposed to turn in our final presentation topics, I stayed a little after to ask her some things. I told her I wanted to do lesbians/gays in Japan, and bless her heart, she was so interested. Her adorable curiosity~ She just said that I should be able to do it, but I should only choose one. Innocently she wondered, “I don’t know about that topic, lesbians in Japan. I could learn a lot from that.” I appreciate her so much :)

みなさんがんばってね~

Wow

Last night was ridiculous. I felt so bad for no real reason. But hopefully, today is gonna be better and tomorrow will be excellent.

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Whale, whale, whale.....

What do we have here?
Now that my bestest friend in Hawaii is gone, there's a big happiness and company void that needs to be filled. Perhaps by a significant other, or perhaps by hanging out with Lulu a lot like I have been lately. He is Asian after all, and we both like a lot of the same stuff so he's a good companion. But, my significant other should be kinda like him.....but gay/bi.

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